first day

check: go to public school

so it was my first official day of public high school today. and i survived!!

i may be biased (since i haven't had to suffer public schooling for my entire life), but it wasn't as bad as i expected! i mean yeah you can't help but feel like livestock when your life is dictated by a bell and the whole homework thing isn't the greatest. but it was cool!

i really didn't mind it and it was so cool to be around so many people. and i actually made a bunch (may be an exaggeration) of friends. i sat with the same two guys from the disaster date at lunch. and i met the rest of their crowd and i think we all hit it off. there's this one girl and she's the biggest ball of energy i have ever met. i swear she's like the sun. like an energizer bunny. but yay for making friends!

and i've decided to say "fuck it" to holding people at arm's length. i mean i already told myself i was going to live. and how can i live if i'm constantly tiptoeing? my inhibitions are gone and i'm going for it. as the hip kids say: YOLO.

but oh gosh guys... the teachers. god. do all high school teachers make shameless innuendos? do they embarrass their students on an daily basis? because if they do, then i'm screwed. i'm pretty sure i was blushing just about 53% of the time today. it was terrible.

every single class that i had with B, a teacher commented on it. granted, B was poking me and tugging on my hair for the majority of those classes, but come on. why does a teacher have to allude to us getting dirty in a janitor's closet?! that's pretty damn excessive. just thinking about it makes me blush. ugh, high school, man.

anyway! this weekend we're doing another thing on my bucket list. i'm finally going to go to disneyland! my friend and i are going on a road trip and heading down there for a few days. i'm pumped. and we've already invited the guys and are hopefully inviting some other new friends too. i'm insanely excited. it's going to be so great.

hmm.. what else to update you guys on...

oh well speaking of you guys: you exist! you guys actually exist! i honestly never imagined that people would actually read this. i mean yeah that was the goal, but i didn't have high hopes. but alas here you guys are and wow! the response was just... seriously wow. so thank you guys so much. you can't even fathom how much that means to me. i'm beaming.

which i'm so thankful for because, as great as my day was, i just about died. i'm exhausted and drained. i had a little spat with KJ today when M and i were driving home. not enjoyable. so my high went down but now it's back. thanks to you guys!

but some comments to you guys based on your responses:

1. yes i am totally serious. i do have a brain tumor. i am going down my bucket list. this is not a joke.

2. yes i am going to remain anonymous. i won't be revealing my name or identity any time soon so don't bother asking.

3. people are bound to find out who i am because i'm pretty specific in my recaps. it's not that difficult to figure out. so to those of you who do know who i am, please don't say. i want to keep my identity on the down low. the whole point of going to a public school is living a normal life. i can't do that if the entire student population knows that i'm going to die. please don't ruin this for me.

4. a lot of you guys commented on my bucket list items. i know that some of them are silly. and i know that some of them are embarrassing. after all, who hasn't been kissed this late in the game? who hasn't gone trick or treating? some of them are just plain pitiful. but remember, my life wasn't normal. that's the whole point. i'm not normal. so please try to keep an open mind. and realize that i didn't have the same childhood that you guys may have had.

5. i don't really know what else but i wanted to have 5 points so hey everyone!!!

so i think that's everything! thanks again to all of you who are reading out there. and thanks double time to all of you who commented! you guys are the bomb.com!!

live long
xoxo K