magic

check: go to disneyland

SURPRISE! i'm back!

i'm super sorry for the little hiatus this weekend, but i was in disneyland! a few friends (including M and B) and i drove down to LA and visited the most magical place on earth.

and wow guys. it really was magical. i don't think i've ever been anywhere with more hope and cheer and love and excitement and happiness. being there just feels you with this glow and this satisfaction. this feeling that the world is how it should be and life is good.

which i know is a lie. the world isn't how it should be. if it were, i wouldn't be dying. if it were, there wouldn't be stabbings and shootings of innocent people. if it were, there wouldn't be victimized children. so no, the world isn't how it should be.

but disneyland fools you into think that it is for just a moment. it lets you let go of the pains of the world. the moment you step through those gates, everything falls away. there's just you and the experience before you.

it's truly amazing. i didn't want the day to end. i wish i could capture that feeling and sell it. i'd have enough money to find a cure to cancer a million times over.

but i guess i should talk more about the specifics of the trip. instead of babbling about happiness and abstract emotions and blah blah blah. i should probably put warnings on this blog.

WARNING: though side effects of a terminal diagnosis may vary, studies have shown that there is a high risk of disgusting sentimentality

there you go. you have been warned.

anyway. M planned the trip for me. and then somehow B and three of his friends (i guess my friends now too) tagged along. we had to drive a few hours and those were entertaining for sure. and then we stayed from friday night until sunday morning.

if i'm completely honest, i slept most of the time. KJ acts up on long road trips most of the time. too many hours in the car lead to a tumor temper tantrum. the easiest way out of the pain is to sleep it off. so half of the driving was spent with me passed out in B's lap. i'm sure he loooved that.

but yeah i mean i don't really know what else to say! i rode some of the rides, but i'm not a huge ride person. i get headaches too much on them and then that just ruins my day. the others did convince me to go on a few. though i wouldn't be able to tell you the names of them; i was shoved in a line and the next thing i knew i was walking out of the gift shop at the end. the in between was a bit of a blur.

i did meet tons of characters though! M and i met mickey and minnie right away. the picture is actually my lock screen right now. it's so great omg. i would attach the picture, but i obviously have to keep my identity anonymous so sorry buds

but gosh did i meet people. M and i went on a search for them and then B and i went on a search for them later too. i'm not positive, but i think i ended up seeing mickey, minnie, pooh bear, cinderella, belle, the frozen trio (only in the parade though, their line was like hours long), and tiana.

and a silly thing, but wow do i want to be a character. like i'd love to have that be my job. it must feel so amazing to make children feel so happy. their absolute joy when they meet their favorite character, off the screen for the first time. nothing could be more fulfilling.

i heard that disney did internships. i wonder if that's one of them? like a hands on internship where you can actually be a character. i'm not sure who i'd want to be. i have too many favorites. disney is honestly my life. when i was little, i couldn't go out much (obviously) and i was stuck in bed most of the time as they figured out what my limits were. my mom made it up to me by letting me watch every single disney movie known to man (even the lesser known like the black cauldron) and eat unlimited candy.

which i guess is where that other bucket list item comes from. the one about having a disney movie marathon. i just really want to feel that childish innocence one last time. i want to bundle up in blankets, lock myself in my house, and just watch movies all day. eat my weight in candle. curl up. and watch. i really hope i get to that item before i go. i could definitely use that peace.

but okay enough with that sap. that's really all i have to report! not much has been going on. i finished my first week of public school on friday and it's been going well. my teachers are pretty chill. i've found a pretty solid friend group with B's friends. they're all great. i mean life is just pretty good. and i mean it helps that i've been pretty steadily going down my list. it's giving me some hope.

but i actually really do have to go because i'm writing this before school and M is here to pick me up. so i'll talk to you guys next time!

hopefully i'll have something good to report!

live long
xoxo K